rest is best

it's just about the eve of my “vacation,” and i am feeeeeling it, y'all. i'm getting increasingly (& frustratingly) forgetful, i'm spinning my wheels ever deeper in the mud pit of my to-do list, and am more easily overwhelmed (and occasionally teary) than usual.

i believe the word is “tired.”

 i'm happy, i'm stoked, i'm fine - but i'm also tired.

and this kind of tired is about more than how much sleep i didn't get or how many times i've played spiderman or wrestled with two copper-haired monkeys jumping on the bed. it's the kind that, if left for too long unattended, can lead to burnout, sickness, or even just undue emotional strife. i remember how i used to get sick immediately after finals every. single. semester. or how hitting traffic in the last few miles of a long road trip (read: driving home to brooklyn from anywhere, anytime) can make a person literally sob with frustration or totally freak with road rage. my current version of this is a touch of plantar fasciitis and cripplingly sore hip flexors, sure signals from my body that it's time to chill.

endurance is a thing, whether in cardio or childcare, that we can't assume we're born with. most of us need to train for endurance and it doesn't happen all at once. honestly, considering i haven't taken a week off since last christmas and didn't start to crumble until a few days ago, my endurance is actually pretty good. i'm lucky/privileged enough to be able to take time away from work and the day-to-day grind. and i know that just as muscles grow not during the workout but in recovery, so will my mothering, multitasking and entrepreneurial skills recoup in the next couple weeks. rest is best.

and while solo parenting two small carsick-prone kids on a road trip to visit multiple family members is hardly a restful activity, i want to do it, and i know that i'll be refreshed afterwards, once again radiant with patience, emanating bubbly encouragement, and full of hustle.

till then, babes, stay cool, and keep being your creative, kind, curious and totally rad selves. see you in september!